Let's Get Crazyyyy...

So Tiffany informed me today that an update was needed lol
Life is pretty crazy, trying to get on track with a therapist. Mine got taken away from me so I had to find a new one.
Dealing with some pretty scary health stuff, but I brought it on myself so I'll deal.

I have a new boyfriend, named Miguel. And no, he's not mexican despite his name haha, He looks nothing like that. But his dad is Columbian so they named him that! He's a Violinst and a junior at Texas Tech which is in Lubbock, which is 6 hours from here =[ But oh well he's amazing...

I miss my sister, Tiff, Trey, my family. I guess it's just going to have to be a part of my life now, to miss people all the time. But it's okay, I'll just find moments in my day where I'll laugh about something because it reminds me of past memories with those people and it's great :)

Hope everybody's doing well. SO ready for SUMMER!!! I'm addicted to the tanning bed now so I already got that hot summer tan going on :)

Love you guys!

Life's What You Make It...So Let's Make It Rock!!

Lately, I've become addicted to watching Hannah Montana. It worries me.

Besides the point, life is going okay. Just doing schoolwork and all that goodness. Still going to the therapist and doctor and all that stuff.

Went out on a date last night with a guy named Patrick. It was awesome to actually have a guy treat me like a lady. He opened doors and paid for dinner and the movie, which he let me pick. He's also an awesome guy to sit through "Fired Up" haha ;) And then he didn't even try to kiss me goodnight, which after some of the assholes I've been through, was a HUGE relief. So yeah, we'll see how it goes, I'm just taking it slow.

I'm so ready for Saturday to get here. I'm in need of some family time and to see my sister and Tiff and Makayla. I love Texas but I need a taste of home, just for a week... Then I'll be good =]

So that's it, I hope to see you all this coming up week.
Much Love <3

Update is needed I guess?

Sorry I never think to write on this thing.

Life is....progressing? I think that's the best word to use.
I'm doing my classes online this semester. I'm taking Music Appreciation, Study Skills, Algebra, and Texas History. It's kind of nice doing school from home but then again it's kind of boring around here too. But, it's only for the semester which is good.

I drive back and forth to the therapist at least twice a week. It's like a 45 minute drive one way so it's an excursion to say the least. But, you have to do what you have to do when you don't have insurance and somebody's willing to give you free services. That's why I do school online so that way I can get back and forth to my appointments without worrying about time crunches to get to class and stuff.

I'm really excited about future travel plans...
Going to Macon for Morgan's Spring Break February 28th-March 7th.
Going to Orlando with the family in July.
Going to Acupulco, Mexico with Aunt Donna, her best friend and hopefully my best friend will be able to go. And that's the first week in August =]

Valentine's Day is on Saturday. I really hate the holiday but I mean it's whatever, I'm happy for the people who have big plans. As for me, I'll probably hang out with some friends or sit at home with Aunt Donna and eat some chocolates (that I will buy myself!).

Much Love <3

25 Random Things.

Once you've been tagged you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.

1. I would rather drink juice than soda.
2. I had my first real kiss at 19.
3. I have a seriously bad nail-biting habit;; I have fake nails and I still bite them.
4. I never knew I wanted to be a teacher until I worked in a daycare and was a two-year-old teacher;; now I can't see myself doing anything else.
5. I will never get a tattoo without my sister there;; she shares the first one I ever got.
6. I have promised myself I will never be ashamed of my past;; only use it as a tool to do better in the future.
7. I'm in therapy;; 3 times a week;; yep, think of me as a nutcase, I don't care, I'm getting better.
8. In high school I was known as one of the biggest gossipers and a huge drama queen;; I never again want to hold EITHER of those titles.
9. My goal in life is to just provide for myself and be happy;; if a husband comes along, great;; kids, sure;; but until then, I'm doing things for myself.
10. My room in Texas is the room I always wanted but never could have;; it's black and white themed with random bits of pink and green everywhere;; it's absolutely perfect.
11. I hope that one day I can afford to do something nice for my Mama Liz;; she has done so much for me and I just want to make her proud.
12. I sing, rap, say lyrics in everyday conversation.
13. Yoga is the most relaxing thing that I've ever done and I want to make it a part of my everyday life;; deep breathing helps me fall asleep at night.
14. I lick my lips when it's cold outside for some reason;; which leads to chapped lips which suck.
15. I love to make people laugh.
16. I don't do high heels;; I can wear them, I just don't like to;; give me flats or flip flops any day.
17. I still watch Disney Channel on a regular basis;; and yes, I'd love to be a Disney Princess.
18. I would rather hang out with a group of guy friends than girls anyday;; I'm not good a being friends with girls;; there are a select few that I can get along with but not many.
19. I love dancing;; I don't care if I look stupid doing it either, it's fun.
20. I text wayyy too much;; and I hate it when people don't respond.
21. I've never had more than $500 dollars in my bank account.
22. I love video games;; but old school ones like Super Mario Brothers for Nintendo and stuff.
23. I use smiley faces a lot online =] ;] =[ it's just a habit.
24. I miss one of my ex's;; he really meant a lot to me, and he still does.
25. I have to sleep with a fan on;; it gets hot.

How?

"I've got some imperfections, but how can you collect them all and throw them in my face?"

How do you earn back trust after you've hurt someone so much they take every word you say like a grain of salt?

How can I have a best friend who no matter how badly I lie to her and hurt her, still stand by my side and let me know just how much I fucked up this time?

When does it stop? When do I stop craving this attention? When do I STOP trying to tear down everyone around me and just learn to live?

I'm so tired of living this way, and I WANT to be better, I WANT to fix it, I just don't know how to stop, I'm so afraid that I'm just a lost cause, and that scares the shit out of me...

So now, I have a whole week alone in Texas to think about this, my aunt and uncle are out of town going to Acapulco (lucky people), so I have a big empty house to dwell on all this shit going on.

Oh well, maybe some time away from everybody will do me some good.

Love?

That's what you get...

So it's been a while since I updated. Well, I got dumped. Yeahhh, David broke up with me about 2 weekends ago so yeah...and it was for a dumbass reason, because we didn't "understand each other". Wtf? But whatever, that's over and done with.

Thanksgiving was good. It was extremely weird being here for Thanksgiving instead of at home. But I made do with it. I went to my first club in Dallas on Thanksgiving night with Melissa and Victoria. It was sooo much fun! The club is called Purgatory and there's three levels of dance floors, Heaven, Purgatory and Hell. It was a lot of fun!

Went shopping on Black Friday for a little bit, had to work and then went back out shopping that night.

I'm working at a daycare now called TLC. I love that job so much. I'm one of the two-year-old teachers. I get the kids that are either about to be 2 or just turned 2. I work from 12:30-6:30 everyday and I absolutely adore my job. I'm really looking into Early Childhood Education now that I've been making my own lesson plans and teaching the kids everyday. =) It's such a rewarding job!

As far as school goes, I gave my first presentation today for Finals. I did my history project on A Chorus Line so it was awesome. I made a stage complete with a cake as my stage and the background was mirrors and some curtains. It was pretty great if I do say so myself.

Christmas plans are a little weird. Daddy is flying to be with us from December 22-25th and then he and I are flying back to Atlanta on the 25th so I'll be home from the 25th to the 30th =)

Well that's about it. I love you guys <3

Since You Been Gone...

FIRST: Can I just say, thank God? Ken took a plea deal today so that means no court, no trial, no testimonies, it's all over. And I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulder.

Thursday night, I made my drive to Georgia. After 13 and 1/2 hours in the car I finally arrived in Macon. Honestly, I don't miss Macon. I missed my family and friends and I got my fill of that while I was there. Even though I missed seeing Tiffany and Makayla this trip, I know that I will get to spend a ton of time with them at Christmas. I returned home yesterday feeling like this was really where I belonged and that's a huge thing for me.

There is so much going on in my life right now. My two best friends from Macon are currently in the marriage planning stage of their lives. Tiffany's getting married next year and Morgan and Amanda in future years. I'm so very excited for both of them and so grateful to have such amazing friends. And it is a huge honor to be a part of both of their weddings.

So, I screwed up pretty bad my first semester of college, I had to drop a class already and I'll be lucky to scrape out some C's this semester. But you know, I'm not really that worried about it, I found out what college is really all about and I'm trying to get my life stable and I know that next semester will be so much better.

I completely love my family and friends. Oh and my boyfriend's pretty amazing =)