"I've got some imperfections, but how can you collect them all and throw them in my face?"
How do you earn back trust after you've hurt someone so much they take every word you say like a grain of salt?
How can I have a best friend who no matter how badly I lie to her and hurt her, still stand by my side and let me know just how much I fucked up this time?
When does it stop? When do I stop craving this attention? When do I STOP trying to tear down everyone around me and just learn to live?
I'm so tired of living this way, and I WANT to be better, I WANT to fix it, I just don't know how to stop, I'm so afraid that I'm just a lost cause, and that scares the shit out of me...
So now, I have a whole week alone in Texas to think about this, my aunt and uncle are out of town going to Acapulco (lucky people), so I have a big empty house to dwell on all this shit going on.
Oh well, maybe some time away from everybody will do me some good.
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About Me
- Cay Belle
- *I'm 20. *I go to CCCCD. *Proud Godmother. *Love my big family. *Most amazing friends ever.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
That's what you get...
So it's been a while since I updated. Well, I got dumped. Yeahhh, David broke up with me about 2 weekends ago so yeah...and it was for a dumbass reason, because we didn't "understand each other". Wtf? But whatever, that's over and done with.
Thanksgiving was good. It was extremely weird being here for Thanksgiving instead of at home. But I made do with it. I went to my first club in Dallas on Thanksgiving night with Melissa and Victoria. It was sooo much fun! The club is called Purgatory and there's three levels of dance floors, Heaven, Purgatory and Hell. It was a lot of fun!
Went shopping on Black Friday for a little bit, had to work and then went back out shopping that night.
I'm working at a daycare now called TLC. I love that job so much. I'm one of the two-year-old teachers. I get the kids that are either about to be 2 or just turned 2. I work from 12:30-6:30 everyday and I absolutely adore my job. I'm really looking into Early Childhood Education now that I've been making my own lesson plans and teaching the kids everyday. =) It's such a rewarding job!
As far as school goes, I gave my first presentation today for Finals. I did my history project on A Chorus Line so it was awesome. I made a stage complete with a cake as my stage and the background was mirrors and some curtains. It was pretty great if I do say so myself.
Christmas plans are a little weird. Daddy is flying to be with us from December 22-25th and then he and I are flying back to Atlanta on the 25th so I'll be home from the 25th to the 30th =)
Well that's about it. I love you guys <3
Thanksgiving was good. It was extremely weird being here for Thanksgiving instead of at home. But I made do with it. I went to my first club in Dallas on Thanksgiving night with Melissa and Victoria. It was sooo much fun! The club is called Purgatory and there's three levels of dance floors, Heaven, Purgatory and Hell. It was a lot of fun!
Went shopping on Black Friday for a little bit, had to work and then went back out shopping that night.
I'm working at a daycare now called TLC. I love that job so much. I'm one of the two-year-old teachers. I get the kids that are either about to be 2 or just turned 2. I work from 12:30-6:30 everyday and I absolutely adore my job. I'm really looking into Early Childhood Education now that I've been making my own lesson plans and teaching the kids everyday. =) It's such a rewarding job!
As far as school goes, I gave my first presentation today for Finals. I did my history project on A Chorus Line so it was awesome. I made a stage complete with a cake as my stage and the background was mirrors and some curtains. It was pretty great if I do say so myself.
Christmas plans are a little weird. Daddy is flying to be with us from December 22-25th and then he and I are flying back to Atlanta on the 25th so I'll be home from the 25th to the 30th =)
Well that's about it. I love you guys <3
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