Boys, sometimes a girl just needs one...

So I agree with Britney on this, buttt what happens when you have WAY too many to handle at one time? I really liked this guy David, he took me to an amazing concert on our first date and all this kind of stuff, told me I was beautiful blah blah blah, basically he went back to school (which is 6 hours away) and decided he didn't have time to talk to me every day so he was like this just won't work. Okay. Fine. I'm not desperate, I can find someone else. So I do, his name's Brandon, and honestly, he treats me like a princess. His friends love me, and I've got about 3 new "girl" friends and then a few more guy friends out of this. Well as soon as David hears that I've moved on, he wants me back. And he's really pissing me off. He didn't want me when he could have me...its just now that I'm not available that he wants me. Damn I HATE boys...urgh...

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with No Air...

College life is really weird for me. I realize as I’m sitting here between classes how little most people care about this experience. College is a completely different world for me. I actually care about coming to school (yeah, me) and that’s a huge step. Most of the people who go to school here could give two shits less about it. They are all here mostly to get their associates and be done with it. I don’t know. There is a point to this but I’m just struggling to find it lol I don’t KNOW what I want to do with the rest of my life. And that scares me to death. Every time I try to picture my future I can’t….its a very scary feeling. It makes me feel like I should die soon so I don’t have to decide haha But I’m not suicidal so don’t start that shit. But I don’t know. There are many things I’d like to do in life but I change my mind a lot so I feel like I won’t ever “settle”. I don’t like being places long-term. Its just a thing with me.

Also, I’m very concerned about the fact that since I’ve started college, well lets face it, I’ve turned into kind of a slut. It’s pretty weird, I wasn’t like this at all in Georgia and now its like wowwww. Yeah, it’s a big change. But I don’t know, I like the feeling of being wanted. It really is hard to choose between guys though. And I only have like one friend that’s a girl. Elise. And she likes to talk about her boyfriend a lot, and how perfect they are and that’s great, I just can’t relate to that at all.

My best friend’s engaged now. I’m very very happy for her. Even if it is to a girl, she’s found someone she feels she truly loves and that’s all that I could ask for. I want her to be happy. She deserves to be happy. I’m excited to be part of the planning process even if they are waiting a couple of years. It means a lot that my sister would trust me enough to confide in me with this stuff. She really is the best. That’s my problem with finding friends that are girls here, none of them really relate to me like Morgan does. I mean, I feel like as far as girls, sisters, that kind of thing goes, I’m covered lol I guess that’s why I only hang out with guys here. I don’t know, there are sometimes when I really want to just go over and see Morgan and I’m like wow, I don’t live in Georgia anymore…. But I wouldn’t change this move for anything. I’m very happy where I am…despite all my gripes and complaints haha

Also, a certain best friend of mine decided to post some inappropriate pictures. The thing is, I’m so proud of her for expressing her sexuality, but that’s a private matter girlfriend, don’t share your goodies with everybody in the internet world!

Sorry this was VERY ADD!! I’m waiting on math class and that does weird things to my head lol

Texas...

Hello Beautiful People!!
How the hell is everyone? I'm doing pretty fabulous myself :)
School is in its 3rd week and I'm surviving so far! I have History and English on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays; then I have Math and Makeup on Tuesdays and Thursdays.
I work a weird schedule but I'm working as a Nanny for 3 great kids- Alex is 12, Abbi is 10 and Will is 8. Basically, I pick them up from school and we all do homework together and goof off! It's great lol

I've made a few friends here so far. I already knew Elise when I got here and we signed up and have a class together so that's good. I'm really good friends with all my classmates from Makeup, they're just like me lol So we all get along super well. And I've been on a couple of different dates since I've been here. One guy took me to see Maroon 5 and Counting Crows in concert....talk about a first date wow. lol

You know, I don't really miss much about Macon. I miss my family (Mommy Liz, Morgan, Conner, Spencer, Craig) and my Daddy. I also miss my friends. But I've kept in touch with everybody so far so it's not really that different, I just have moments when I'm like wow, I wish so and so was here. I REALLY miss Show Choir and Trey....you never realize how good of a thing you had until its over and done with. I miss going to class and working hard toward something, I miss dancing and singing all the time, I miss actually being a part of a team. But I mean I guess that's what happens when you grow up....

That's all for now. I've got a serious rant blog coming up tomorrow. Be prepared ;)

You know you love me <3